for the regulars: change is coming

IMG_0167Since July of 2010 I’ve posted on this blog 614 times. I started for three reasons–as a place to share more about our transitory, hop-around lives with those that know us, as a creative outlet, and to work on writing in an authentic way. The last reason was the real kick that got me started. I was tired of writing in my head or writing journals, reflecting and then forgetting. I wanted to write something that someone would read.

Over time, as that began to happen, I found another reason to blog. Writing-just-to-write began to seem very empty compared to writing things that may be relevant or in some way encouraging to others. Perhaps that’s really what prodded me to start in the first place; perhaps by naming this collection Part of the Main I was trying to get at something far better expressed by John Donne centuries past–we are all parts of the one big whole of human experience; intentionally or unintentionally in our lives and deaths and struggles and joys we present an unfolding story written by God, the original Author. The one who made every one of us in his image.

I’ve just had a look at the categories I’ve written about. There’s plenty of rubbish about food and who knows what, but far and away my dominant topic has been Being Mommy. That’s really the story of my last six years, this massive transition from being whoever-I-was-before (can’t remember, really) to the Mommy in this family. It’s changed me in ways permanent and profound. It’s a part of who I am now in a way I could never have imagined before a wrinkly, little, red Norah was placed in my arms yelling her pointy head off in 2008. And, while I know there’s other work for me to do, other parts of who I am, my role in this family as Alex’s wife and the mother of my children has proven the biggest and most fulfilling challenge of my life. I’ve failed at it, struggled with it, rejoiced in it, learned about it, loved it, and tackled it for going on six years. It’s been most of my part of the main.

I’m still there. I think I’ll always be there, reflecting on and considering my life in light of motherhood, which is an inseparable and indispensable part of it. But there’s more going on here. We’re a pre-field family, about to depart for places far-flung and different. On this mom-blog I’ve kept a pretty solid silence about that part of my part of the main. Sometimes this silence has made it hard to write the posts I really feel stirring, bits of our journey or things God has done for us that I’d really like to sing about.

When we move overseas, I’m not even certain I can continue in this venue. I think a new mode may become necessary, devoid of names and details–disconnected from this collection. If I do continue writing, I plan to write more about our family’s journey in light of what God is leading us to do. I’d like to write as I learn more about other peoples in other places and thus learn more about the God who made us all to reflect his glory. It may not be your cup of tea, dear reader. At any rate it won’t be the same one. Thank you for reading all of this time, for receiving what I’ve placed here and for participating in this site. I’m grateful for you: I’m grateful for each friendship brought to me in this unexpected way and each interaction. (Except the lady who keeps spamming me about diet pills, struggling to be grateful for her.)

Just a word about the long silences. And a heads up: change is coming.

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8 Responses to for the regulars: change is coming

  1. Kay Lynn says:

    I have been so blessed by your writing — thank you! I would love to subscribe to updates about your overseas work when that time comes. (That is, if you are taking subscriptions….) God bless you.

    • betsy says:

      Hi Kay Lynn. Thank you for leaving this encouraging comment! I have thought about providing a way for current subscribers to subscribe to the new site. I’ll be sure and update you when that time comes! I’m glad you’re here.

  2. Sarah Anikpo says:

    I guess it’s a good time to let you know how blessed I am whenever you do have time to write. I read regularly and am so excited for what’s to come. I am an old acquaintance from Mpls.

    • betsy says:

      Hi Sarah! Thank you for this–I was blessed to know you’re still in for what’s coming. When I make the transition I’ll provide a way for current subscribers or readers to apply for a link to the new site. God bless!

  3. Kate says:

    Thank you for writing! I love reading your blog and have been so blessed since it was passed along to me during the start of our time as a PhD family in St. Andrews, Scotland. You specifically have beautifully transformed how we as a family observe Advent and Easter and I will be forever grateful for that. I wanted to pass along a blog of a friend who is doing a similar thing (I think). She is vague as well but they do live in Asia and serve in a similar capacity. http://rupplife.blogspot.co.uk/ Hope it’s helpful!

  4. Deanna says:

    Just keep writing!!! (Whatever the format/avenue.) We all benefit from your wisdom and perspective friend. Praying for all the new that’s on your horizon.

  5. Erin says:

    I will keep reading whatever you choose to write about. I have been blessed by your words and look forward to hearing more about what is so close to your heart! After all, change usually means growth… and you’ve been growing towards this change for a long time, it seems. Blessings!

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